So many young people today are lost, confused, pressured by the devil, even to the point of considering suicide. Listen to this real-life testimony of a young woman who was in that same situation, then set free by the Power of God.
The grace of God is something that we all take for granted at some point in our lives and I too can say that I was guilty of it myself. I never knew and understood God in a way that allowed me to surrender and to seek all of Him in the way I do now. For a long time I suffered from many things. I was bound by sin, fear, depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and so much more.
The enemy started planting seeds early in my life which led me to believe so many bad things and have very negative thoughts. I never felt as if I was loved, or understood, my mind was set on broken things, and I cried a lot, and had hidden sadness in my life. I was faced to endure some things as a child a child shouldn’t have to experience and that was the starting point of my ever-racing mind. I can’t remember a time in my life outside of now, and when I first got filled with the Holy Spirit that I’ve felt so much peace.
As a kid I developed some strange mental problems that carried over to my adulthood which led me to drinking, partying, fornicating, and living a life that God was not pleased with. On top of being mentally disrupted I had a real struggle in my spiritual life. I knew of God, I knew I loved Him and He loved me but I was still so very unhappy. The reason why was because I didn’t know God in being freed from all of my sins. I didn’t know I could be delivered from the bondage of sin and live a free life in Jesus Christ. Because I was told that all I had to do was to repent and God understood my weaknesses it left me with the same ongoing problems for a long time.
Battling in my spiritual life and battling in my mind in my natural life was very tough on me. There were times I wanted to check myself into a mental ward, or hurt/kill myself because the pressure was so thick and heavy. I was so lost in sin and so far from God that I could feel the presence of the enemy waiting on me. It had gotten so bad that the last night I truly was contemplating suicide I could actually feel an evil spirit trying to “make” me or push me to do it. I was so scared and afraid, I cried, cried, and cried and ending up calling a guy I was talking to at the time and he just laughed it off and said I was tripping. That’s when I knew I needed Jesus. Nobody will ever be there for you like Jesus Christ.
I dropped everything, every sin that I knew that I was doing wrong and surrendered my life to God. I stopped drinking, smoking, cut it off with the guy I was talking too, cut friends off, and stepped back from my family and dedicated my life to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. God welcomed me in and forgave me and delivered me from my sins. I started going back to Full Gospel Holy Temple Church in Dallas because I knew that there was structure there. I knew that they were doing it the right way and I wanted to be Holy and live an obedient life before my God.
That was the best decision that I had ever made. A lot of us say we waiting on God, but I’m here to tell you that God is waiting on you. He’s already there with open arms waiting on us. John 6:37 says that “All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.” Jesus is waiting for you.
If you’re feeling that tug from God in your heart; if you find yourself doing things you never thought you would do; if life is seeming real heavy without God, go to Him. There will never be a change in your life unless you take the steps towards making that change. God will not make us serve Him so we have to be the one who goes to Him. He has made His love clear and evident unto us and we truly do not have a reason not to serve Him. Grace doesn’t give us a pass to sin and we shouldn’t take advantage of God’s love.
17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. 1 Cor. 5:17 KJV
Won’t you allow Jesus make you a new man or woman today?